Am I a stalker now?? 💀💀 - part 2

(continuation..)

"Anyways, why would I stalk you when there are literally hundreds of beautiful women around here?"

Incredulous, rude and vengeful - all on purpose.

Why wouldn’t I be? 

She’s the one who tried to create a public spectacle out of me, and I believe that gives me every right to pay her back in whatever way I choose.

Calling her unattractive to her face was my way of saying, “Why would I stalk you if I don’t even find you attractive?”

Anyway, she acts like what I said didn’t even register with her. Maybe it didn’t.

"Stop stalking me, that would make me comfortable". She said it flat, like a broken record.

I leaned in, half-laughing, half-mocking, ‘You have to pay me to stalk you.'

Not my proudest moment, but it’s how I felt. She didn’t just call me a stalker—she made it sound like I was desperate enough to chase her. Hell no!

With people watching, I wasn’t letting them think I’m some pathetic guy chasing anything—especially not her!

She just leaves. No anger, no drama—just gone. Weird as hell.

The drama ended there.

The admin, smh, seemed convinced that there's no juice to her story, probably it's just the unsaid, underlying bro code at work. And I wasn't thrown out of the ashram.

In retrospect, maybe that was her real intention from the start.

Anyhow I knew I was rude with my “hundreds of beautiful women” jab. 

Next day, I even tried to arrange a meeting through a mutual friend — wanted to apologize for being too harsh, tell her straight I wasn’t interested, let her focus on her sadhana.

She refused. Doubled down. Still swearing I stalked her.

Guess she needs that 'stalker narrative' to feed something inside her.

I should've asked her:

"If I’m such a stalker, how come you never saw me lurking outside the ashram?"

We both know why -- it doesn't fit her story.

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A better way?

It could all have been so simple:

"Hey bro, are you following me or what?"

"What do you mean?"

"I saw you noticing me, and it made me uncomfortable"

"Never really looked at you with any romantic interest, but if you felt that way, I’ll stay outta your path. Peace."

Simple. Straight. Mature - that doesn't involve complaining to the headmaster.

Ikik.

If people talked like that there wouldn't be any world wars or conflicts.

But nah.

We aren't wired for simple straightforward conversations. 

We're built for confusion, miscommunication and drama.

If people were brutally honest, maya itself would disappear.

Would that be good or bad? I dunno.

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And that lady? 

She’ll always be an ugly duck to me. Not just caz of her looks, but for trying to drag me down in front of the whole ashram crowd.

Part 3 of this? 

Not about her. Never about her. That's the twist you should wait for.